- Hilaria Baldwin revealed in an interview with TODAY more details about her possible miscarriage.
- Hilaria, 35, realized that her pregnancy may not "stick" during an ultrasound appointment when the technicians noticed the baby's irregular heartbeat.
- According to the new interview, Hilaria hopes that talking about miscarriages will help end the stigma that surrounds it.
Last week, fitness guru Hilaria Baldwin posted on Instagram that her current pregnancy is likely to result in a miscarriage.
"I want to let you know that I most likely miscarry," Hilaria wrote in her Instagram post. "The embryo has a heartbeat, but it's not strong and the baby is not growing very much, so we wait – and that's hard – so much insecurity … but the chances are very, very low, that this is a viable pregnancy "
Now Hilaria reveals even more details about her possible miscarriage – including why she has decided to be so open.
In a new interview with TODAY, Hilaria said she hopes to destigmatize the fear of miscarriage. "As women, we are prepared to handle it silently," said Hilaria. "You definitely should not say anything 12 weeks ago, and some of them are because people are superstitious, or because they feel they're getting stronger, and much of that, because others are scared, I do not think we're so scared have to live. "
Hilaria also described the moment when her ultrasound technician, who saw her during her last four pregnancies, could not find the heartbeat of the embryo. At the next visit, the heartbeat of the embryo was still irregular. "I'm pretty sure this will not stay," Hilaria said, but admits a miscarriage was not her fault. "We have to forgive ourselves a little bit more."
Miscarriages are incredibly common – about 10 percent of all clinically recognized pregnancies in a miscarriage, according to the American College of Obstetricians and Gynecologists – but Hilaria hopes that by being open about what she is going through, she can eliminate the stigma of miscarriage.
"This is something I have never experienced and women came to my Instagram or stopped me on the street and gave me such wisdom," she said. "This is not about me, this is about us all."
View this post on Instagram I want to let you know that I'm most likely to have a miscarriage. I always promised myself that if I became pregnant again, I would share the news with you fairly early, even if it means suffering a public loss. I've always been so open to you about my family, fitness, pregnancies … and I do not want to keep that from you just because it's not as positive and shiny as the others. I think it's important to show the truth, because my job is to help people by being real and open. In addition, I am not ashamed and not ashamed of this experience. I want to be part of the effort to normalize miscarriages and remove the stigma. There is so much secrecy during the first trimester. This works for some, but personally I find it exhausting. I'm sick, I'm tired, my body is changing. And I have to pretend that everything is alright – and it really is not. I do not want to have to pretend anymore. I hope you understand. So that's what's happening now: The embryo has a heartbeat, but it's not strong and the baby is not growing very much. So we wait – and that's hard. So much insecurity … but the chances are very, very low that this is a viable pregnancy. I am absolutely confident that my family and I will succeed, even if the journey is difficult. I am so blessed with my amazing doctor, my dear friends and my loving family … My husband and my four very healthy babies help me to hold together and have the perspective of how beautiful life is, even if it is sometimes ugly appears. The happiness and gratitude that I feel that I am my baby's mom is wonderfully overwhelming and comforting. Please be kind in your comments. I feel a bit fragile and need support. I hope that this contribution will help to raise awareness of this sensitive topic. A post shared by Hilaria Thomas Baldwin (@hilariabaldwin) on April 4, 2019 at 06:47 PDT
Hilaria's original Instagram post has generated over 20,000 comments, many of which share their own miscarriage stories. Her husband, actor Alec Baldwin, once again posted her announcement photo on his own Instagram and wrote, "My wife is nice and generous in supporting other women …"
"For me personally, it would be harder to shut it down," Hilaria said. "Secrets are scary only if they are secrets … Once you've uncovered the mystery, it's not so scary anymore."