LOUIS Tomlinson's sister Félicité, a friend of Félicité, wrote her a homage saying, "I wish we had spent more time together, but we were never there."
Rapper Lukey Storey, who was thought to be 33, turned to the Instagram star, who died yesterday at the age of 18, directly in a long message and described her as a "twinge of pain."
He said they were "busy running away from our demons" and insisted, "It should have been me."
The musician, who was once Pro Green DJ, wrote, "There's no telling how painful it is.
"I write in shock, she was one of the sweetest, cutest and purest people I've ever met, a purity that's too rare for this world.
"In many ways, you were my first and only fan who always talked to me about my music, told me how important that was, and encouraged me to write more and more. We got along from the start.
"I fell back in my apartment, just you there beside me, I saw in you what I wear, I wish we had spent more time together, but we were rare."
He added, "Too busy running away from our demons, Keeping the pain of others in perfect company: We were twins of pain."
"It feels like it's me, and a bad dream that I'll wake up soon, I'm not crying, I have not eaten or slept since I heard the message.
"I wish I could have done something, not to let that happen, the last thing you said to me was that you called me 'Bubba,' that you were proud of me because you were clean again were.
"I answered thank you, sweetheart, and what I asked of you the next day will haunt me to my grave, today I wish I was with you, it could be me or somebody in our circle of maniacs."
Lukey, whose real name is Luke Brinkers, continued, "I think it should have been mine, I did not know if I should even release it or make one of my feelings public because it's too real, raw, and personal feels."
"Maybe I'll erase that as well, depending on how I feel after posting it, who knows?
"I think all I can say now is that I never realized how temporary life is, and that you hold your loved ones and tell them that you love them every day, because when they're gone she away.
Felicite You've made my life in such a short time and I'll miss you forever now. "" I'm damn angry, I do not have anything else. "
He concluded, "I know that you want me to stay clean and keep on creating, so I'll do that until I look for you on the other side.
"As I write this, I have never been so confused by so many feelings and I can not see what most of them are.
"My thoughts are with her family, everyone and everyone who knew and loved her, none of which feels real. @Felicitegrace 🌹"
Louis was "devastated" by sources close to the One Direction singer following the death of Félicité, who was praised last night as "lovable, caring, bright and beautiful".
She collapsed after a suspected heart attack in her studio apartment on the fourth floor in Earls Court in the west of London on Wednesday afternoon.
A person with the up-and-coming fashion designer and social media influencer called the name 999. Two ambulance teams rushed to the address with a paramedic and a single paramedic in a car.
Despite extensive efforts to revive Felicite, she was declared dead at the scene.
The police were immediately alerted and visited the address as a precaution to determine if suspicious circumstances existed.
The death of Félicité – known as Fizzy – is being treated as "inexplicable" at this time, with full post-mortem inspection and toxicological testing being required.
Her death comes just two years after her death and Louis's mother Johannah Deakin died of leukemia in 2016.
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